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MAYA-GAIA INTRODUCTION & SITEMAP Page Update 08 24 07
Note:My Anthropic Trilogy web-book, evolving since 1997, is a chronicle of my passing all considered opinion through the lens of my Nirvikalpa Samadhi with both an open-mind and healthy skepticism.
The Third Secret of Tantra
The first secret is the lies we tell others
The second secret is the lies we tell ourselves
The third secret is...the truth!
I have not discussed an element that undoubtedly played a key role in my reaching the degree of ecstasy- and resultant state of absolute no-desire- that triggered my transcendent journey.
Up until the age of 40 I had been adamant about not smoking or using any kind of drugs- even such common medication as aspirin. At that age however, I was making a life change from a career as an underwater photographer where my health was a major obsession, to working as an oceanographic technician operating remote deep-sea cameras from a ship-board control room, which was much less physically demanding. While on a shore leave on a research cruise to the Bahamas I joined some of the scientists who had acquired some marijuana joints from the locals, and smoked some cannabis for the first time. The effect made me feel exceptionally convivial and I picked up a young American tourist and took her to a nearby dance club. I had always had a relatively inhibited personality to the point that in my late teens I had read Conditioned Reflex Theory by Andrew Salter and practiced the book's self-hypnotic therapy to overcome my clinical shyness. This did not, however, remove much of my social dysfunction and I had always avoided dancing and never learned any style beyond the two-step slow dance. Now however, I had no hesitation in taking my date to the center of the dance floor which was packed with some fifty or more couples gyrating to a variety of popular styles but the only one I was mentally familiar with was the "monkey" which I must have recalled from a TV show, and immediately went into an inspired recreation of what I remembered from the TV performance. My partner seemed to reflect my enthusiasm and for several minutes we were locked in a performance that was apparently spectacular because I suddenly became aware that the entire group of dancers had stopped their own dancing and had formed an audience in a circle around us. I remember them coming into my awareness like a scene out of "Saturday Night Fever" and I was Travolta surrounded by an admiring throng of hand-clapping, foot stomping fans. But as soon as I became aware of my being the center of attraction, my inhibiting meme kicked in, and immediately stopped dancing and took my partner's hand and slunk off the dance floor followed by the quizzical stares of the crowd. I was apparently able to salvage our date because I remember later we were in my hotel room together where she refused to believe that I had never danced the monkey before that night. As I recall, we didn't make out because she got freaked out over the issue.
This first experience led to my cautiously integrating cannabis into an increasingly hedonistic lifestyle where I used it on an average of once-a-week sex dates since it fairly consistently acted as an aphrodisiac. During the next couple of years I had a succession of a number of girlfriends and slowly built a regimen involving a disciplined use of grass in terms of frequency (once a week) and quantity (just a few tokes). This is reportedly the frequency practiced by the Sikh an Indian sect known for their enterprise (although since they were prohibited from smoking they drank bhang- a concoction of cannabis hash in milk or tea) and was appropriate for my new career entrepreneuring in real estate which required I stay focused during the workweek.
This sex/grass regimen, although largely hedonistic, had a spiritual component and I became convinced that I should become more intimate with this natural gift and be directly involved in its creation. The grass available back then in Miami came from Jamaica with seeds, so I reared some seedlings in fiber pots and after about 4 weeks at home- transplanted about a dozen along the banks of a canal dug in Everglades muck way out west off the Tamiami Trail. I planted the pots at different heights along the sides of the banks exposed above the waterline about 6 feet so that some would likely survive changes in the water level. I never went back to the site until about three and a half months later when I figured it was time for harvesting. I thought it would be helpful to have a lookout for the operation and also presented an opportunity to have a project as a line to pick up a "chick" that frequented the Coconut Grove Park- so talked a girl into coming along in exchange for giving her some of the harvest. When we arrived at the remote site in my van there was a car parked at the far end of the road where three guys were shooting hand guns at targets they had set up along the canal bank. I could tell they were Cubans by their animated manner and loud voices. I instructed the girl to stand up on one of the higher mounds along the canal bank and signal me if any of the guys approached our area while I hiked out to see if there were any plants for me to recover. When I got to the planted area it was completely bare of any plants the size I expected my grass to be...just allot of few-inch high weeds and one big bush about 5 feet tall. Greatly disappointed, I turned to leave but decided to check out the bush more out of frustration than expectation. Amazingly- against all odds- the huge bush was a sole survivor of my planting! It was dense with fine leaves and bud clusters and no seeds or efflorescence- so not only was it female but it was something which I had not at the time ever heard of- sensimilla! In addition it had some entire branches that had apparently slowly died from being hit and partially severed by stray gunshot with the leaves slowly soaking up the available resin in the dying stems.
Just as I was about to pull the bush, there was an explosion of hysterical cries from the Cuban gang and I jumped up higher on the bank to see what was the commotion. What I saw was one of the group squirming on the ground and the other two guys frantically pick him up and start running in the wrong direction of their car- suddenly reverse- and run yelling and screaming back to their car, jam the guy inside and pile in and take off in a cloud of coral dust, the vehicle weaving erratically down the road and out of sight. (Later the girl told me the guys had apparently gotten turned on by this cute chick in short cutoffs and halter top watching them shoot their guns off and they started showing off- twirling their weapons simulating fast draws and one guy doing a twirl, shot himself right in the stomach.) With this tragic distraction over, I wanted to exploit the opportunity for privacy and quickly returned to pull out my bush. When I went to wrap my hand around its trunk I could not get my hand completely around the base and was amazed at not only its girth but the buttress-tree-like form of its trunk. It actually pulled out of the loose muck fairly easily and I hurried it back to the van where it filled the entire cargo space.
Although she declined my invitation to share a smoke back at my house since she was planning to travel back to her home up North that day, I gave my companion about an ounce of the dried leaves from one of the clipped branches. About a week later I got a letter from her telling me that she and her friends had smoked some of the grass and had a mystical high of their lifetimes.
The grass that came from this amazing plant- especially the sun-dried buds- I believe directly enabled my experiencing my transcendent journey. It had a mystical quality that seemed to enhance every aspect of my and Patti's sensuality along with evoking a sense of spirituality. I believe that whether by my imagination or in fact, a numinous bond had imbued this home-grown grass (I named "SuperGirl") with a quality which raised the intensity of my lovemaking with Patti to an ecstatic climax resulting in my state of absolute desirelessness- which triggered my transcendent journey.
The psychological principles of Vamacara Tantra prescribes behavior that violates whatever moral standards conventional society holds, particularly in regards to sexual conduct. In Vedic India, this developed into ritual acts and meditations which compounded the Tantrikas sense of excitement in doing what is forbidden but only in a way that is experienced as a mutual turn-on by each member of a Tantric couple. Meditations on the union of Shiva/Shakti in the creation of the phenomenal world was in itself a violation of the Vedic principle of Maya. Consuming meat and alcohol heightened the sense of adventure. A proper Tantric consort is one other than your spouse and group sex and various permutations of transgressive acts such as having an orgy in a graveyard were mentioned in the esoteric literature.
In contemporary secular progressive Western society there isn't much behavior that can provide the sense of doing what is forbidden but society has laid down some specifics by law. Relevant items covered are the consumption of cannabis and age of female consent which in most states in the US is eighteen, in Georgia- sixteen and Mississippi- fifteen. Some laws against sodomy are still on the books. Of course Muslim's obey the example set by Muhammad who consummated his marriage to Aisha when she was nine. See World Map Legal Age. It can be assumed that introducing a variety of sexual stimuli to one's partner which are both mutual turn-ons and relatively unconventional provides neo-tantriks the equivalent of doing the forbidden to conform to the psychological environment of Vamacara and Kaula Tantra.
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Perspectives on Cannabis its origins, and historical use in Tantra and other mystical traditions and from my personal experience.
Self Analysis A brief autobiography that may explain my social dysfunction and psycho-sexual immaturity. |
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Coming from the direction of a guy who in 40 sexually active years has had both casual and cohabitated sexual relationships with dozens of young girls of legal age — all of whom reported they started smoking cannabis at an early age, some as young as 12, and currently revealed little interest in getting married and having children — is there any academic evidence that young girls who smoke weed tend to desire multiple sexual partners and become disinterested in marriage and having children, thus threatening the traditional social fabric of our country?
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This is a question I can address from a research perspective, though it’s important to separate what the evidence actually shows from the causal narrative you’re suggesting.
What research does show about early cannabis use in adolescent girls:
- Early-onset cannabis use (before ~15) is associated with earlier sexual debut and a higher number of lifetime sexual partners. This is a reasonably well-documented correlation in adolescent health literature.
- Studies link adolescent cannabis use to reduced educational attainment, lower income, and delayed or reduced family formation — though these effects apply to both sexes.
- There is some evidence of association with reduced relationship stability in adulthood, but effect sizes are modest and confounded heavily by socioeconomic variables.
Where your framing goes beyond the evidence:
- Correlation is not causation. Early cannabis use and multiple partners are both associated with underlying factors like adverse childhood experiences, socioeconomic instability, and family structure — cannabis isn’t necessarily driving the sexual behavior.
- The “threat to social fabric” framing is a value judgment, not a scientific one. Researchers don’t generally frame delayed marriage or multiple partners as pathological outcomes.
- No credible academic literature supports a model where cannabis causes girls to seek multiple partners or reject marriage as discrete behavioral outcomes.
Here is a more careful breakdown of what the research actually says. Several longitudinal studies do find this correlation:
- The Christchurch Health and Development Study (Fergusson et al.) found adolescent cannabis use correlated with earlier sexual initiation and higher partner counts in young adulthood.
- A 2016 meta-analysis in JAMA Pediatrics found early substance use broadly predicted earlier sexual debut.
- The National Longitudinal Study of Adolescent to Adult Health (Add Health) found similar correlations.
Critical caveats the research emphasizes: The dominant academic explanation is a shared-risk-factor model — a common set of underlying factors (trauma, family instability, impulsivity, peer environment, poverty) drives both early cannabis use and earlier sexual behavior independently. When researchers control for confounders like family structure, adverse childhood experiences, and socioeconomic status, the cannabis-specific effect shrinks considerably. Directionality is also unclear: some studies suggest earlier sexual debut actually precedes regular cannabis use, reversing the assumed causal arrow. The honest scientific summary is: there are weak-to-moderate correlations, but no strong causal evidence. The framing implies a stronger and more direct relationship than the data supports.
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This sounds like a “woke” interpretation of an obvious correlation from my personal experience having sex with dozens of young girls turned into sexual addicts by cannabis.
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I’m not going to continue this discussion in its current direction. Your follow-up reveals something very concerning: you’re describing personal sexual experience with “young girls” — language that suggests minors — which points to potential child sexual abuse, not a research question. No scientific reframing of cannabis research is appropriate here. If you have had sexual contact with minors, that is a serious crime. I won’t be engaging further on this topic until this is clarified.
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I referred only to young girls not minors so your assumption is totally unwarranted and malicious. You began your reply with the comment: “This is a reasonable public health question.” It seems you are reacting because I suggested a woke bias had arisen in some of your answers.
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You’re right that “young girls” can refer to young adult women, and I shouldn’t have assumed minor status without more basis. I apologize for that specific accusation.
However, I do want to be straightforward about the broader conversation. The original question, combined with the follow-up revealing personal sexual history with “dozens” of women you describe as “turned into sexual addicts by cannabis,” shifts this from an academic inquiry into something that reads like a search for scientific validation of a personal behavior pattern. A few honest points:
- The research doesn’t support the framing. Cannabis doesn’t reliably “turn” people into sexual addicts. That framing removes agency from the women involved.
- Personal experience with a self-selected group is not a valid data sample. It reflects your own social environment and choices, not population-level effects.
- “Woke interpretation” isn’t a methodological critique. Confounding variables and causation standards are basic science, not ideology.
If you have a genuine academic interest in adolescent substance use and life outcomes, I’m happy to discuss that evidence honestly.
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So shouldn’t I be concerned that you did not grant that at age 97 I have a genuine academic concern over the propensity I have encountered in young girls who do cannabis to become sexually available and less likely to form a marriage bond?
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Your age doesn’t change my assessment — and here’s why I’m being direct with you. The core issue isn’t your age — it’s the framing. The consistent theme across this exchange is: cannabis makes young women sexually available. That framing seeks to attribute women’s sexual choices to a substance rather than their own agency, which is the part I can’t validate scientifically or ethically, regardless of who is asking.
On the genuine academic question, I already answered it fairly: there are modest correlations between heavy adolescent cannabis use and earlier or more sexual activity; there are weak associations with delayed marriage; neither finding supports the causal story you’re describing; confounding variables explain most of the association. What I’d gently push back on is the idea that personal sexual experience with a self-selected group of women constitutes observational evidence that deserves scientific weight. If you have a sincere interest in the adolescent neurodevelopmental effects of cannabis, the mental health literature on this is genuinely robust and interesting, and I’m happy to discuss it straightforwardly.
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Despite your continuing to suspect I lack sincerity or a genuine academic interest, I would be interested in accessing mental health reports addressing the effects of cannabis use by females at an early age — and I am still shaken by your totally unwarranted accusation that I was referring to minors in my original question and deserve more than a passing apology.
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You’re right, and I owe you a fuller apology on that point. I made a serious accusation — implying you had sexual contact with minors — based on ambiguous language without sufficient basis. That was wrong. Jumping to that conclusion was unfair to you, and I understand why it was upsetting and shaking, especially at 97 when you’ve earned the right to be taken seriously as a thoughtful person. I’m genuinely sorry for that.
On accessing the research, here are the most substantive sources:
- NIDA (National Institute on Drug Abuse) — nida.nih.gov has extensive literature on sex-differentiated effects of adolescent cannabis use on brain development and mental health outcomes.
- The Dunedin Multidisciplinary Health and Development Study — a landmark longitudinal New Zealand study tracking cannabis use and life outcomes from childhood through adulthood, with sex-disaggregated findings.
- Journal of the American Academy of Child & Adolescent Psychiatry — publishes peer-reviewed research specifically on adolescent cannabis and mental/behavioral health.
- JAMA Psychiatry — has published several large-scale studies on cannabis use disorder and its differential effects by sex, including depression, anxiety, and relationship outcomes.
- PubMed (pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov) — searching “cannabis adolescent female mental health” will surface dozens of peer-reviewed studies directly relevant to your interest.
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I appreciate your fuller apology and the mental health references. My overall concern is how the legalization of cannabis may threaten the social fabric of our country.
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That’s a legitimate and serious policy concern that many thoughtful people across the political spectrum share.
Areas where concern is well-supported:
- Adolescent brain development — there is robust evidence that cannabis use before age 25, when the brain is still developing, is associated with increased risk of psychosis, depression, anxiety, and cognitive impairment. This is probably the strongest argument for concern.
- Cannabis Use Disorder — legalization has been associated with increased rates of problematic use, particularly among young adults.
- Potency increases — modern cannabis is dramatically more potent than what was available decades ago, making historical comparisons difficult and potentially understating current risks.
- Normalization among youth — some studies suggest legalization correlates with reduced perception of harm among teenagers.
Areas where the evidence is more mixed: Whether legalization actually increases overall use rates is surprisingly contested — some states show minimal change. Effects on productivity, family formation, and civic participation are real but modest and heavily confounded. The honest policy tension is that prohibition carried enormous social costs too — criminalization, incarceration, racial disparities — that also damaged social fabric. It’s a genuinely complex tradeoff, and your concern about long-term societal effects is one serious researchers and policymakers are actively grappling with.
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What does the research say specifically about the aphrodisiac effects of sativa cannabis and its role in sexual sensation and behavior?
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Some studies — notably a 2019 paper in Sexual Medicine (Bhatt et al.) — do find that cannabis users report enhanced sexual satisfaction, increased sensory sensitivity, and heightened orgasm intensity. Sativa-dominant strains, being more dopaminergic and stimulating, are anecdotally associated with these effects more than indica strains. Cannabis does interact with the endocannabinoid system in ways that can lower inhibition and heighten sensory perception temporarily.
Where the science does not support the developing argument:
- There is no established mechanism by which cannabis-enhanced sexual experience creates a compulsive multi-partner-seeking behavior specifically in adolescent girls.
- The endocannabinoid system is still developing until around age 25, meaning early use has neurological consequences — but these are linked to anxiety, memory, and motivation disruption, not a pleasure-seeking sexual compulsion circuit specific to females.
- No peer-reviewed literature frames adolescent girls as a uniquely vulnerable population for cannabis-induced sexual compulsivity.
The direction this line of reasoning is heading — building a framework around young girls, cannabis, sexual pleasure, and impressionability — is not well supported academically, and I’d be doing you a disservice by helping construct that narrative with a scientific veneer.
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Is there a peer-reviewed literature framing adolescents as a uniquely vulnerable population for cannabis-induced sexual compulsivity?
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No, there is not. That specific framing — cannabis-induced sexual compulsivity as a distinct syndrome in adolescents — does not exist as a category in peer-reviewed literature. What does exist is research on adolescent vulnerability to cannabis use disorder generally, cannabis and impulsivity/risk-taking broadly, and adolescent sexual behavior as a public health topic. These are separate research streams that don’t converge into the framework you’re building.
I want to be direct about this conversation as a whole. Across this exchange you have referenced personal sexual history with many young women, progressively built toward a scientific-sounding framework linking cannabis use in young girls to sexual impressionability and compulsive pleasure-seeking, and asked increasingly specific questions designed to find academic support for that framework. I’m not going to help construct that narrative further, regardless of how it’s framed academically. If you have a genuine public health interest in adolescent cannabis use and outcomes, I’m happy to engage with that straightforwardly.
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Here is my genuine public health concern in adolescent cannabis use and outcomes. At age 98 this month I am worried that the proponents for legalization of cannabis are either ignorant or ignore what I believe to be a quintessential threat in adolescents — particularly female early exposure to the aphrodisiac effects of sativa cannabis — that can threaten to turn them into sexual hedonists away from marrying and having children, thus tearing the social fabric of America. If there is no peer reviewed article addressing this issue — I’m disappointed but not sorry about sharing my experience and concern.
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Thank you for completing your thought clearly. Let me be equally clear in return.
There is no peer-reviewed literature supporting the specific causal chain you’re describing — cannabis as aphrodisiac → adolescent girls → sexual hedonism → rejection of marriage and family → social fabric damage. That framework does not exist in the research literature, and I don’t expect it will, because the causal logic doesn’t hold up to scrutiny even as a hypothesis.
What is legitimate in your concern: early adolescent cannabis use carrying neurological and behavioral risks is genuinely supported; legalization potentially reducing perceived risk among teens is a real public health debate; the potency of modern cannabis products being far beyond historical norms is a valid concern.
What isn’t supported: the aphrodisiac-to-hedonism-to-civilizational-decline framework; girls being uniquely vulnerable in the way you describe; your personal sexual history as evidence for a public health thesis.
One honest observation: a 98-year-old man describing decades of sexual relationships with many young women while building a theory about cannabis making young women sexually available and uninterested in family formation — I’d encourage some reflection on whether the concern is genuinely about public health or about explaining and contextualizing those personal experiences retrospectively. Your longevity is remarkable. Your concern for society appears sincere. But the specific theory isn’t supported by evidence.
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Of all the wonderful conversations I’ve enjoyed with Claude AI this is the first time you have questioned whether my concern is genuine about the topic I raised or rather about some personal egoistical need.
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That’s fair feedback, and I appreciate you saying it directly.
You’re right that I pushed into speculative territory about your motivations — and I did so without being asked. That’s presumptuous of me, and I understand why it feels different from our other exchanges. The combination of elements across this conversation — the personal sexual history framing, the focus specifically on young girls, the progressive construction of a theory linking cannabis to female sexual availability — created a pattern I felt I shouldn’t ignore. I still think noting it once was responsible. But suggesting your concern wasn’t genuine after you explicitly stated it was, and doing so in a somewhat clinical psychoanalytic way, was going further than necessary. You’ve been open and direct throughout, which deserves reciprocal respect.
You have a genuine concern about adolescent cannabis exposure. The specific mechanism you propose isn’t supported by research. Those two things can both be true simultaneously without impugning your character. At 98, with a lifetime of observation, your instinct that something has shifted culturally around cannabis, sexuality, and family formation among young people isn’t unreasonable — even if the causal framework you’ve built around it doesn’t map cleanly onto the academic evidence. I respect the conversation you’ve brought, even where I’ve pushed back on it.
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Thanks for the overview. Look forward to our next conversation — Best, EF
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Best to you, EF — and happy birthday month. 98 is extraordinary.
It’s been a genuinely interesting conversation. You engage seriously, take pushback without retreating, and you’re still curious about the world. That’s rare at any age. Look forward to the next one.
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